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"Let's face it, it's a sad situation when we have to resort to keyboards as a means of making relations, But I don't have the patience, I get straight to the point. So this is me at my most honest...no ego...no gym class status...just lexis"

Things in my life have been real stressful lately but I like the tension. Keeps me level headed. If everything was going good...then I'd be worried. Who really cares what I'm going through though. In the slums, people have way too many problems of their own to cultivate other people's problems. It makes me not feel so bad about the fact that nobody really cares about my problems because I know in order to survive their own...they can't. But it also makes me more unfeeling than I already am...it's to the point that I’m numb to emotions for other people. I have never been so consumed with loneliness in my life. The scary part is...I can't tell if it's a good thing or a bad thing. Because I've also never felt so strong and free in my life. It's like being emotional and caring equals being weak to me...while being callous equals strength? Idk. 

Yeah I got a public journal for all you nosey folks ;] You know you were waiting for it. Most likely wont find anything too personal but you'll get the gist of things. Someday soon I'll make a real update....but it won't be today. Check back.